The Pokeberry Quilt

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Thursday, February 24, 2011

My JIm

My ears feel with tears every night, with pain I have never endured. I've tried to write, but if I write it, it becomes true. He goes on, a little progress, some set backs, I no longer ask myself why he has to endure so much. How does he do it, why does he do it, I'm reading anything that will give me any answer, I have none, I want the one that will sooth me, he's waiting to touch his Mom, I will take him to Florida in 2 months, he will get us there, his doctor said he would too. From there, I don't know, leaving our beloved land and wildlife. It has filled our souls, today the nurse said his eyes lite up whe I said elk were on the property.

I sleep in his room and bed at night, his clothes, is someone teaching me I have forgotten the meaning of what or is this his life, like so many others. I can't go any further tonight, but to thank you.

24 comments:

  1. Oh Nancy, my heart breaks for you. I can't find the words to tell you except that I'm thinking of you both..
    Lizzie
    xxx

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  2. I think of you and Jim so often, and look for a post from you. Thank you for taking the time to write about Jim. I can only pray and ask for peace and strength and comfort for both of you.
    Blessings and love,
    Kathy

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  3. Thank you for your post Nancy. Even though we have never met you have inspired and touched many lives in this blogging /quilting community. We hold you and Jim in our thoughts and prayers and I hope you may find some comfort from them.
    Barbie Jo

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  4. Thank you for posting ~ I have thought of you and prayed for you many times since your last one. Jim continues on for a reason ~ it's hard to know what that is ~ maybe more time for you to be together and learn from each other. Bless you both on this journey ~ and continued prayers for you both to be surrounded by peace and light ~

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  5. Nancy...there are no words but to say you and Jim are constantly in my thoughts and prayers...

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  6. Nancy, if only there were words that could truly bring you comfort. I keep you and Jim in my thoughts every day. Sending hugs your way!

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  7. Many hugs for you and your Jim, Nancy. Wish I could help you in some way, please know I hold you up in prayer.

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  8. I'm praying for you and sending you many happy and peaceful thoughts.

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  9. May God Bless you and Jim

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  10. As many others I don't even have words, I too think of you guys during the days and have you in my prayers every day!

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  11. I think of you and Jim, many times thru the day and each time you cross my mind I say another prayer for you both. Thank you for taking the time to update your blog. We all wonder how are YOU doing? Nancy, try not to wonder why. Just know that each day you spend together is a blessing no matter how hard that day is. In my experiences there really are no answers as to why our loved ones have to suffer so much pain, just more questions.I stopped asking why a long time ago. Life for many of us are hard, I don't know why, it just is. The love the two of you share is beautiful.Continued prayers.

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  12. Nancy, you and jim are in my thoughts and prayers. May God give you both peace and comfort.

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  13. Oh, my dear Nancy. Like so many others who follow your blog, we've never met but your down-to-earth writings and you sharing so much -- well, I just feel we are friends. I so very much wish I could help you. I called Kim Q. several days ago but didn't get a return call. Will you be able to return to Montana? I care.
    Linda - NE Iowa

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  14. You are both in my thoughts (((hugs)))

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  15. Oh Nancy, I've thought of you both every day since your last post...and wonder...and send up prayers into the Universe for you both to be blessed with the strength and courage that you both need right now... Sending quilted hugs to wrap you in...Thank you for updating us.

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  16. Nancy, I continue to think of you and Jim often, and my heart breaks for you and what you are going through. You are both in my prayers.

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  17. Nancy, my heart aches for you...I pray for you many times thru the days especially everytime I sit down to mail and see a post from Primative..hoping for you to post again.Good days bad days that's what it takes to get better..Jim will find his way to get back to you.I miss you and wish there were something I could do for you BUT what..

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  18. Prayers and strength for you both.....christine

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  19. Thank you so much for posting.
    I continue to pray for you both.
    My heart aches for you both,
    Katie

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  20. Be strong - my prayers are with you...

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  21. Nancy, thank you so much for posting to us. You and Jim are in my prayers and thoughts every day--prayers for healing, peace, comfort. I know that this is so difficult at this time, but I so hope that the virtual hugs sent your way will give you some comfort.
    Bernice in BC

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  22. Dear Nancy, In reading all the nice comments from your internet friends, I hope that it brings you some comfort knowing so many people are pulling for you both and praying for you. I guess that is one of the great things about the internet. It can bring so many people from all over the world together as friends! What a blessing! I want you to know that I am praying for you too, that God will give you comfort, and that he is wrapping his arms around you both. He promised that he would never leave us! Thank you for posting again, so we can know how to pray for you. Jeni

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  23. Nancy, may God grant you and Jim peace. Thank you for giving us the chance to share your lives. Teri

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  24. I have had you both in my thoughts and prayers. I am so touched every time I see Jim's picture. My heart goes out to you.

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