The Pokeberry Quilt

The Pokeberry Quilt

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Another day

Little sleep, less food, but my tasks are at hand. My pain give me little time to pack things for Jim, my joints you sit on are fractured. The pain passes, 2 pills might put me in a state as is I'm not there already, anyway far less than he has to endure. Jim has progressed little, his mind is somewhere else, a friend is making music cd's for him to stimulate his brain and maybe make him happy. I'm on faith whatever it might be, faith is about doing, You are how you act, not just how you believe, from Mitch Albom. Simple words that are speaking to me.

I try not to cry, it brings the sadness I can not endure. I will make his items tomorrow without tears, then the next task.

Jim and I have been together 32 years, having fun, fighting, this year has been especially hard, now I wish I had those days to be forgiven. In the hospital room, I told him how much I loved him, "really, you're too beautiful to love me like this". "well I do, forever, no mater, no if's, no exceptions."

I m going to read the posts before I publish them since they have become very personal to me.

18 comments:

  1. Hang in there.
    We are all still here when you need to talk.

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  2. I'm speecheless. Want to let you know that you both are in my thoughts Nancy.

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  3. Nancy I think about you and Jim constantly. If I could give you a million hugs I would. You are such a strong woman, I admire you immensely. We are all here for you, always.
    Love
    Beth

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  4. I don`t know why you are taking him to Florida,I may have missed that somewhere.
    I continue to pray for both of you,what a smile he has on your header!
    May God give you both some mercy & comfort today & strength for the days to follow,phylliso

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  5. Nancy...you are an amazing woman with unbelievable strength!! I think of you and Jim more and more and pray for your comfort and peace. hugs, Caryl

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  6. Tell us about your Jim, Nancy...How you met. What made you fall in love with him (besides his boyish good looks, of course.) Tell us about the healthy man that stole your heart. And in those stories we will probably all see what has given him the strength to endure all that he does and what gives you the stength to so lovingly and selflessly care for him. No forgiveness is needed. It sounds like you both loved and love hard. Truely...how many people are fortunate to have a love like that??
    Tell us about the man behind the smile above.

    You are both in my thoughts throughtout each day.--Diana

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  7. Your words touch my heart, and am sending a big hug to you, dear Nancy.

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  8. You are right. Your actions act out your faith and can come around to help you in return. You are comfort and I pray that you are comforted. My prayers continue for you both.

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  9. I feel helpless listening to your pain and not being able to provide more comfort. Please know that you and Jim are in my daily thoughts and prayers.

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  10. I keep you and Jim in my prayers.

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  11. To have such amazing love hopefully will help you to endure the days one at a time....much love to you both cheri

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  12. Nancy, just wanted you to know that I think about you and Jim each day and keep you guys in my prayers. It is such a blessing to have such a love for each other. I wish I wasn't so far away here in Texas to give you a big hug so cyber hugs for you both.
    Take care of yourself too.
    Hugs, Melinda

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  13. Nancy, it's been just 6 short weeks since your accident and your body still needs nutrition and time to heal. If I lived nearby, I'd be bringing you meals everyday. Please take care and try to forgive yourself the way you know Jim would, and already has. His love for you, and gratitude for all you have done to help him, is so apparent to everyone else. I hope you can find a way to see it, too. Sending you wishes for comfort, prayers for healing you both and safe journey to Florida.
    hugs,
    Carol

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  14. We love you Nancy and your a very special lady that's what your wonderful Jim saw in you. Your love is the real love and not found easily.Take one day at a time and know your in my heart and prayers several times a day..terry

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  15. I'm not sure what to say except my heart hurts for you. Thinking of you and Jim and hoping for you each day.

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  16. Your sorrow breaks my heart. It sounds like you may be moving to Florida with Jim, for help in taking care of him? No matter, your life has turned upside down. I am so, so sorry for you. Faith is a good thing to hold on to right now. Listen to God's voice and follow His will; He will give you strength.

    From one who has been there,
    darlynn

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  17. I cannot imagine what you are going through. But you are showing your love in even the smallest task. Hold fast to your memories of better times as you go on this journey. And rejoice in knowing that this life is fleeting, heaven is eternal. No pain, no tears and no parting. Praying for you and Jim daily. Please feel the love of so many that are lifting you both up in prayer.

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  18. I just want to say my thoughts are with you. You will get through this somehow. Just make sure you take care of yourself too!

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