The Pokeberry Quilt

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Thursday, February 03, 2011

Hell on Earth

The days have passed oh so slowly, Jim is still not eating or drinking. How long this goes on, I don't know, I've been a nurse for a long time and certain events will make the difference.

He's been very restless, talking to people who have long passed.

He fell out of bed one night regardless of the railings we had set us, called two strangers from down the road and they were there in a minute to carry him back into bed.

Jim is not sleeping regardless of the medicine I give him. He pulled his catheter out and and being by myself, ignored the blood and urine and inserted another. I sleep next to him at night, but little sleep comes. Always on the alert.

Iva, the lady from Pennsyvania who gave him his birthday party, sent him an early Valentine's gift, more food than I could every hope to eat. My friends from work and down the road, run errands for me every day and bring more food and money.

My thoughts on Jim will only come only on my blog now, little interest in any quilting right now.

42 comments:

  1. My prayers continue for whatever comfort and strength you can find during this hard and touching transition. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. Thank you to the people nearby who are able to be there.

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  2. my prayers and thoughts for you to continue to have the strength to endure. pray for the meds to ease some pain for Jim. My heart aches for you both. God Bless.

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  3. Oh Nancy...my heart goes out to you and Jim and I pray for God to give you both strength to keep on going.

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  4. Nancy, I just wanted to let you know you and Jim are in my thoughts and prayers. Gentle hugs sent your way as well as comfort and strength. Susan in Oregon

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  5. Nancy I am so sorry. My mind cannot imagine what you and Jim are going through. Thankful you have a community of caring people around you. They are being blessed, by blessing you. Praying for a mighty move of God.

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  6. Your thoughts are where they should be. Leave them there. Our prayers are with you.

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  7. Prayers are coming your way, please also accept this (((HUG))) via the internet. Though we do not know each other, please remember you are in my thoughts and prayers. Remember to take care of yourself also.

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  8. I'm so sorry to hear about Jim. He's in my prayers!

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  9. May you find strength in the love you have for Jim.

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  10. What a nice looking fellow ~ this Jim of yours! Thank you for sharing your story and allowing us to hold you both up in prayer ~ my goal is to strengthen you and support you. I can't imagine how unbelievably hard life must be right now ~ but there is peace and light waiting just around the corner. An online friend, Alice.

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  11. Some of us only know you thru your blog and your prim group. We are praying for both of you, we are here.

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  12. These are extremely difficult times for you and Jim and like other quilters who read your blog I too wish things could be different for you and Jim. Thank you for sharing this life experience with us even though it's hard for you, we all learn from the example of love and caring that you share with us. I am glad to know that your friends and community have rallied around to help as they can. Please know you are both in my thoughts as you find your way through the days ahead.

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  13. Nancy, you and Jim are in my constant thoughts. May you find the strength to get you through these very difficult times, please know that you are always being sent prayers from all of us who love you and Jim.
    Hugs,
    Beth

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  14. Even though we haven't met in person, I know there are so many of us who are thinking of you and wishing with all of our beings that we could be there for you in person to help you cook, clean, sing, dance, and hug you. You and Jim are so precious to us, so please know that we are here when you need us. Love and hugs, Dixie

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  15. Just sending this to echo the words of all the other commenters - sending you (((hugs))) from over the pond

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  16. Nancy and Jim,

    I have walked in your shoes and my heart goes out to you, Nancy. Remember to take care of you too as you were also injured in the accident. Continued prayers for you both at this difficult time in your lives. Your love for each other will last forever and Jim, will always be with you.

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  17. Nancy and Jim,

    my thoughts and prayers are with you always...

    Kelley

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  18. As with the others I am keeping you and Jim in my prayers.

    Sandy

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  19. OUR GREAT GOD AND SAVIOUR JESUS CHRIST WILL SUPPLY ALL YOUR NEEDS OF GRACE,PATIENCE,COMFORT! BLESSINGS!

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  20. My thoughts and heart are with you. I know that God will give you what you need, you just need to ask Him.

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  21. I am praying for you both.You are doing the right thing,taking care of Jim, we are hear to listen and pray.

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  22. what a difficult time you are facing, sounds like you do have a good support system and are able to ask for help that's good....may all be better soon cheri

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  23. Nancy and Jim

    I am so sorry that this happened to you. I am thinking about you and hope you both are taken care of in every way.

    Laurie

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  24. Nancy I'm holding you and Jim in my thoughts. I am ever hopeful that you will both find some relief and rest. There are a LOT of folks out there pulling for you two. Sending hugs across the miles.

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  25. Being a fellow nurse specializing in oncology coupled with loosing my husband at the age of 45, I am aware of your pain. My tears are shed on your behalf.

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  26. I've just found your blog and read your story.
    I can only give you my best wishes and will be thinking of you and Jim.

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  27. My heart goes out to you and I'll keep you both in my thoughts and prayers...(hugs)

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  28. Dear Nancy,

    You are in my thoughts and prayers all day long. I pray God will supply all your needs right now, and with the friends and neighbors, even strangers, helping you, I believe He is.
    I admire your strength. Your love for Jim will carry you.

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  29. My heart breaks for both of you...sending quilted hugs and prayers.
    Angie
    www.threadcatcher.blogspot.com

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  30. I am an occupational therapist on a rehab unit and I have had two patients w/ stiff man syndrome. It's a horrible disease and my heart goes out to you. Warm thoughts and prayers from Michigan.
    Karen.

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  31. Dear Nancy~
    What a beautiful photo of Jim! You're absolutely doing the right thing. Since I can't be there to help, I'm grateful to know that you have many guardian angels helping you during this most difficult time. Sending you prayers and wishes for strength and peace for you and for Jim.
    hugs,
    Carol

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  32. Nancy and Jim,

    Thinking of you today and sending prayers and hugs.

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  33. Nancy and Jim, just praying for your strength and courage. May God sustain you now.
    Maggey

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  34. This must be so difficult for you both. I never thought I found this terrible news when I caught up your blog. I do remember that you moved to the wonderful area you live now. And now tis. Keep on Nancy, you are doing so good!. I'm thinking of you.

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  35. Just felt moved to leave another comment to let you know you're still in my thoughts and prayers.

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  36. Nancy, I have been reading your blog for several years. I have long admired your quiet lifestyle and your strength and love in caring for Jim. I was really shocked and saddened reading this latest news. So very sorry, my prayers are with you both.

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  37. Another note to you to let you know you are thought of every single day, many times.

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  38. Every day I think of you Nancy. Praying that you and Jim will recover from this nightmare soon.
    Your yahoo group misses you so much, and we all send our love.

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  39. I'm very concerned about you and am checking on your site every day ... is there something particular, specific I can do for you? If I knew what town you are in I could have friends come by and help you in any way you need. I know that sounds weird but we own a home on Flathead and have friends all over the state. I just know there are many who could help, assist, relieve you of this horrible burden. I'm quite serious. Do you need anything ... financial help? Groceries? Supplies? Please let me know ... my email is mgailberry@gmail.com
    XO Gail Berry

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  40. Thoughts and prayers from Pennsylvania. We do not know each other but I have followed your blog since reading an article in a quilt magazine that featured your work. I admire your courage and devotion and hope there is quick recovery and healing. Blessings. Staci Shuck

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  41. Oh Nancy and Jim! I could hardly breathe a few minutes ago reading about your accident for the first time. GOD'S MIGHTY HEALING and Blessings upon you both...esp Jim! What more can I say~

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  42. Your post on Jim and your caring of him have touched me deeply. I too nursed my husband to a peaceful end. May your days be peaceful - despite all the hard work you do. There is some "contentment" in knowing that you are lovingly caring for someone you love deeply. My thoughts are with you.

    Irene (from Australia)

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