The Pokeberry Quilt

The Pokeberry Quilt

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Musings



A beautiful picture of Paradise Valley on my way home, such a serene picture in my chaotic life. I watched the memorial service on TV of Tim Russert's memorial, he was a great political analyst on MSNBC who also was a wonderful, generous man from all the tributes given to him during his memorial service, I think I cried thru the whole hour of his memorial. At the end of the service, they play Over the Rainbow, and as the people who attended left the service and went outside to a clear, sunny day, there was a double rainbow lighting up the sky. A breathtaking picture of a rainbow that must have been a sign from Heaven.

Jim is not doing well, we drive to Billings tomorrow for another trip to his doctor, I'm giving him hormone shots in the hopes to stop the muscle wasting in his legs, he insists he will be better in a month for a surgery I need to have on my hip that I've been putting off, I can't see that happening and the pain and lack of my own energy is taking it's toll on both of us. I'm not use to feeling sick and not doing the things I usely do, but the pain is keeping me from all the things I need and want to do. But I met too many patients at work as well as Jim who face pain everyday and I have to believe that things will work out for the best.

I'm finding it hard to quilt, my passion for quilting is at a standstill, real life has taken over my daily life and I don't like it. I wish for the serenity I see in that mountain picture and it escapes me.

8 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry to hear you are going through a difficult time. Pain is so debilitating and can really get you down...I hope that each day you find something to cheer you up as you did when you looked at Paradise Valley. (((hugs)))

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  2. I was so pleased to see your post today. Even though we don't know each other, I think about you often and keep you in my prayers.

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  3. What a magnificent picture! Seems like home to me, those comforting mountains that surround you. I am so sorry, Nancy...Life just is so tough sometimes. Pain is a real bummer, too. Hope is what we all cling to...hope your hubby finds some relief and that you do too. Encouragement and hugs from Texas!!!
    (and daily prayers)
    JulieK

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  4. Oh Nancy what a lovely view to share with us - I can totally empathise on the pain front, all the little (and not so little things) that need doing everyday and aren't even really usually thought about become mountains to overcome when pain is in the picture - I send you (((hugs))) across the water and hope that your husband has sufficient respite to enable you to get your problems sorted out

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  5. I am continually praying for you and your husband. I am sorry your life isn't leaving you room to quilt. I know many of us find peace in quilting and I hope that you will be able to find peace in other things right now and that the pain will ease. I find your blog posts very moving and inspiring. You seem to be such a strong woman and I admire you and am sending good thoughts your way!

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  6. Oh I"m so sorry to hear Jim is still doing badly, but I guess that isn't any surprise, not that that helps. My sister and I were just talking about similar problems taking care of mom and how tiring it is. Oh I hope things work out ok for your surgery - I wish I could do something to help. You two are still in my prayers.

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  7. Keeping you and Jim in my thoughts.
    Jeanne

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  8. My thoughts are with you and Jim. I hope that some help can be found for Jim and that you will be able to have the surgery you need. I am constantly amazed at the burdens people cope with in life. You must have great inner strength. I wish you peace and serenity.

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